Monday, February 27, 2006
[[My 2 faces]]
I was browsing through some photos I had in my com... Stumbled upon these 2 which startled me... My life is really depicted in the story of Gundam SEED and Destiny...
Kira(My gentle side) ~ To protect the ones he love, he will fight.{Text: 4 leaf clover}I gave you a four leaf clover for good luck, remember?
Shinn(My dark side) ~ To protect the one he loves, he will kill.{Text: A present for you}The guestbook I made for you, remember? My present for you.. I always try to be there for you... Try to give things to you... Things that you want or things that you need... In the past I could do more, because we always talk to each other on the phone.. We always tell each other everything. You always tell me everything... Your joy... Your sorrow... When you got your results, and he didn't want to listen to you. You msg me, and called me.... I knew you cried... I told you that maybe he was just busy in camp, even though I very much wanted to tell you that he didn't really cared for you enough... I was so happy that you turned to me... It was never too much trouble to be there for you... When you told me that you wanted to try those driving games.. I immediately asked you out,, cos I wanted to bring you to play them... It's not that I always bring up the same old things... But this are all the memories I have... No matter how little.. I cherish them... And it's also because they are not many, that I cherish them even more... Caring for you is the one thing I can do without the need to think or plan beforehand. It just comes so naturally to me.... Whenever you want anything or need anything I just want to be there for you... I find my place behind you.... in your shadow.. It's a far cry from the place you found beside me and in my heart...I think this is the first time that tears trinkle out of my eyes without me knowing while I'm thinking about you... I am very scared.. I am very sad... That you are distanting away from me... There is a career fair this wkend... Remember 2 years back when we got our results? I accompanied you a similar one? It was the same day as the day we got our A level results.. You didn't do well... I wanted to be there to comfort you... You said you wanted to go take a look at the fair.. I offered to acccompany you... You agreed.I walked beside you, sometimes behind you. Appearing beside you only when you had doubts or needed explanation and advice. I just realised that this is what I have been doing all along... Appearing swiftly and surely whenever you are in need. I found my place behind you.. After the fair, we had dinner together at the food court.. It was a simple day, yet unforgettable. As time goes by, I began to discover my purpose...However, I know you would'nt accompany me to the fair.. It's ok.. :) I have never asked for anything from you... I just want to see you happy... Can you just be made known to this blog... Can you just remember everything? Don't forget about me please. I would have lost everything then...I still remember the way you call me, "Ben...", when you are sad and you want to tell me what happened...Or when you try to coax me into telling you what happened to me when I didn't want to say at first...Or when you just call out to me...."what happened?""say la...""i tell you everything..there are no secrets between us...""next time got anything, you can always calll me..."Guess I was the one who broke the promise of having no secrets between us... this is my punishment...
i promise @
11:17 PM.