Wednesday, October 26, 2005
[[Stella]]
My other blog is about a year old already.
I started that blog to pen my anguish and sorrows.
It seems that I am doing the same now.
Why is it that the end of the year seems rotten for me always?
Last time, I bore the traits of Kira, now it's Shinn. The beginning of the sequel to Gundam SEED opened a new chapter in my life. In the past, I was a little boy like Kira. He didn't know anything after sadness. When tragedy befalled him, he sought to protect the ones he loved. He was locked in an never ending turmoil within himself. Trapped between Athrun and his Natural friends. He was dying for the answer. What was his purpose? Though, in the time to come, Kira did get his answer. It wasn't to fight, but rather to protect.
Shinn was different. He knew his destiny ever since the death of his family. He was clouded by anger, harath and vengence. In the past, he weak, he was helpless. That's why, as his skills improved, he realised he could accomplish what he could'nt before. He now possessed the power to protect. When fate brought him and Stella together, he swore to protect her, forever.
As I do now.
I dreamt of you last night. I think of you all the time. I pray for the day that we can finally be together.
I pray that you will remember. Remember our past. How we used to care for each other. How we were always there for each other. You even said you tell me everything, and that there are no secrets between us. The biggest secret that I have kept from you is that I have fallen for you.
Don't you know how I feel? Can't you see how much I care for you? Didn't you realise that I'm always there for you whenever possible? Last time, the feelings weren't really there, but now I know they are. I have been telling myself that I will protect you always.. Didn't I tell you that too? When you broke up, you confided in me. Whenever I have problems, I turn to you. Have you forgotten the times when our fathers used to hurt us? We found comfort in each other. We told each other everything. We cried to each other. Even though we didn't cry face to face, but even over the phone, I felt so close to you. We knew how each other felt, you knew the right questions to ask.
When I call to tell you that I'm sad, you would always ask how am I, and what was wrong... Even though my problems have not been solved, I feel comforted enough. Whenever I'm upset, I know that you are always there for me. I promised to always be there for you too didn't I? I told you that so many times, didn't I? How could you have forgotten? I love you so much. I don't care if if he has taken anything from you. I love you enough. I just want to protect you for the rest of my life! Do you know how much I love and care abt you? Whenever I know that there's something that you want, I would try my very best to give it to you. It would seem insignificant because, we don't talk that much nowdays, so I don't know what you want le...
Even if you want to change your instructor, I would pay for you. Anything you want, I would give it my best to provide for you. I promise I will protect you always.
Just as Shinn promised Stella.
I will protect you.
i promise @
11:06 PM.
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
[[Stella]]
My other blog is about a year old already.
I started that blog to pen my anguish and sorrows.
It seems that I am doing the same now.
Why is it that the end of the year seems rotten for me always?
Last time, I bore the traits of Kira, now it's Shinn. The beginning of the sequel to Gundam SEED opened a new chapter in my life. In the past, I was a little boy like Kira. He didn't know anything after sadness. When tragedy befalled him, he sought to protect the ones he loved. He was locked in an never ending turmoil within himself. Trapped between Athrun and his Natural friends. He was dying for the answer. What was his purpose? Though, in the time to come, Kira did get his answer. It wasn't to fight, but rather to protect.
Shinn was different. He knew his destiny ever since the death of his family. He was clouded by anger, harath and vengence. In the past, he weak, he was helpless. That's why, as his skills improved, he realised he could accomplish what he could'nt before. He now possessed the power to protect. When fate brought him and Stella together, he swore to protect her, forever.
As I do now.
I dreamt of you last night. I think of you all the time. I pray for the day that we can finally be together.
I pray that you will remember. Remember our past. How we used to care for each other. How we were always there for each other. You even said you tell me everything, and that there are no secrets between us. The biggest secret that I have kept from you is that I have fallen for you.
Don't you know how I feel? Can't you see how much I care for you? Didn't you realise that I'm always there for you whenever possible? Last time, the feelings weren't really there, but now I know they are. I have been telling myself that I will protect you always.. Didn't I tell you that too? When you broke up, you confided in me. Whenever I have problems, I turn to you. Have you forgotten the times when our fathers used to hurt us? We found comfort in each other. We told each other everything. We cried to each other. Even though we didn't cry face to face, but even over the phone, I felt so close to you. We knew how each other felt, you knew the right questions to ask.
When I call to tell you that I'm sad, you would always ask how am I, and what was wrong... Even though my problems have not been solved, I feel comforted enough. Whenever I'm upset, I know that you are always there for me. I promised to always be there for you too didn't I? I told you that so many times, didn't I? How could you have forgotten? I love you so much. I don't care if if he has taken anything from you. I love you enough. I just want to protect you for the rest of my life! Do you know how much I love and care abt you? Whenever I know that there's something that you want, I would try my very best to give it to you. It would seem insignificant because, we don't talk that much nowdays, so I don't know what you want le...
Even if you want to change your instructor, I would pay for you. Anything you want, I would give it my best to provide for you. I promise I will protect you always.
Just as Shinn promised Stella.
I will protect you.
i promise @
11:06 PM.