Thursday, October 27, 2005
[[Horoscopes for today]]
TaurusWhen you say you care, you mean it, and not just temporarily, either. Before you utter one syllable, however, you need to be absolutely sure those feelings are mutual. Well, go ahead. Say it, and don't worry about a thing.PiscesDon't you dare to ignore the phone, no matter how much you suddenly decide you're craving privacy. There's tomorrow for that. Someone you've missed is about to reach out, and you wouldn't want to miss it.
i promise @
11:55 AM.
[[Our Past]]
I don't believe that you can't remember anything.Do you still remember how you never fail to be there for me whenever I need you? Even if it is late when I call you and tell you that I feel sad, you would still stay up to keep me company till you really are just too tired. :)
Do you remember the times when you were sad, but you wouldn't call to tell me. Only when I call you and ask you then would you tell me that something is bothering you. After the call, you would always msg to tell me that you appreciate my concern.
You always seem so appreciative towards whatever I do. You always seem so happy when you see the gifts I have for you. It just brings me joy just to care for you. Even if you are still sad, the process, of caring for you, alone is something that I look forward to doing. It was never a chore to care for you. I did it willingly and whole-heartedly. On the contray, it is when I am unable to help you that I feel empty and useless.
Last time when I call you and tell you that I am lonely, and ask for your company, you would readily agree... Your reply would always be, "You asking me out ah?", in that cheerful and bubbly tone of yours.. It just brings a little smile to my face. When we meet, we always tease each other. Though sometimes, I would want you to treat me too :p ...Then sometimes you would 'bully' me and expect me to give in to you. It's fine by me. The look on your face as you celebrate your little vitory brightens my day.
Remember the stars I made for you that time? Out of the 88 stars, there's just this one special star that carries a little message from me. And once again, I am folding stars for you again. This time, all the stars convey my message. I mean every word of it. Would you believe me? These stars are for your driving test. As much as I would want you to fail, so that you can learn under my instructor, I still want you to succeed in what your heart desires. That is why I always want to make your wishes come true.. Just like a little Guardian Angel...
When you said you like dark chocolates, I bought them for you whenever i meet you. You said you wanted to try those arcade driving games, and I brought you to play the next time I met you. The day we arranged to meet to pass you the stars, I was on course in Jurong. That day, we had an assignment. I skipped lunch just to finish it so that I can meet you that day. I just can't wait to see you! I was looking forward to meeting you... I eagerly waited for our photo-taking that night... The photos are great. You look beautiful in them. I look at them every now and then. I kept thinking of you, so much so that I wrote your name on a piece of paper which was later discovered by my group mates.
When I was on course, you called me one night when you got your results. You cried before you msg and called me. He didn't care about you. You turned to me. I was very happy. I was happy that you would share your happenings with me.
When you called me back then to tell me you broke up, somehow I was elated. I felt as though I could take care of you fully now. You were crying so much. I rushed with the housework because I wanted to go to you. I want to be there for you, to embrace you. To let you know that I am always there for you. I know you need to be comforted. However, you told me not to come. You said you didn't want me to see you cry. Have you forgotten what you told me before? You told me that it is natural for humans to cry, monkeys don't, but I respected your decision, I didn't go. I regretted my decision. I should have been there.
After you broke up, I knew you were sad, I asked if you needed company. But, I wasn't free everyday. I was on NDP duty at Marina, still I managed to squeeze out one day for you. It was only a while, actually I wanted to meet you more than you needed me. That period, I would call you sometimes at night to check on you, to see if you are doing fine. I remember there was night, I was very tired, but I just wanted to hear your voice, so I called you. I asked how are you. You said you were fine. I told you not to worry because I would protect you de...Your reply seemed sweet, maybe somewhat touched and glad. There was a lttle sparkle in your voice. Little did I know, you had already patched up.
Do you remember the times when I msg you and say that I needed you. You would offer to talk to me, to keep me company.
I knew you are always there for me.
I did all these for you because I wanted you to be happy, because I feel that he wouldn't do it for you.
All these things. All of in the past. How could you have forgotten? Don't you feel anything at all?
i promise @
2:25 AM.
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
[[Stella]]
My other blog is about a year old already.
I started that blog to pen my anguish and sorrows.
It seems that I am doing the same now.
Why is it that the end of the year seems rotten for me always?
Last time, I bore the traits of Kira, now it's Shinn. The beginning of the sequel to Gundam SEED opened a new chapter in my life. In the past, I was a little boy like Kira. He didn't know anything after sadness. When tragedy befalled him, he sought to protect the ones he loved. He was locked in an never ending turmoil within himself. Trapped between Athrun and his Natural friends. He was dying for the answer. What was his purpose? Though, in the time to come, Kira did get his answer. It wasn't to fight, but rather to protect.
Shinn was different. He knew his destiny ever since the death of his family. He was clouded by anger, harath and vengence. In the past, he weak, he was helpless. That's why, as his skills improved, he realised he could accomplish what he could'nt before. He now possessed the power to protect. When fate brought him and Stella together, he swore to protect her, forever.
As I do now.
I dreamt of you last night. I think of you all the time. I pray for the day that we can finally be together.
I pray that you will remember. Remember our past. How we used to care for each other. How we were always there for each other. You even said you tell me everything, and that there are no secrets between us. The biggest secret that I have kept from you is that I have fallen for you.
Don't you know how I feel? Can't you see how much I care for you? Didn't you realise that I'm always there for you whenever possible? Last time, the feelings weren't really there, but now I know they are. I have been telling myself that I will protect you always.. Didn't I tell you that too? When you broke up, you confided in me. Whenever I have problems, I turn to you. Have you forgotten the times when our fathers used to hurt us? We found comfort in each other. We told each other everything. We cried to each other. Even though we didn't cry face to face, but even over the phone, I felt so close to you. We knew how each other felt, you knew the right questions to ask.
When I call to tell you that I'm sad, you would always ask how am I, and what was wrong... Even though my problems have not been solved, I feel comforted enough. Whenever I'm upset, I know that you are always there for me. I promised to always be there for you too didn't I? I told you that so many times, didn't I? How could you have forgotten? I love you so much. I don't care if if he has taken anything from you. I love you enough. I just want to protect you for the rest of my life! Do you know how much I love and care abt you? Whenever I know that there's something that you want, I would try my very best to give it to you. It would seem insignificant because, we don't talk that much nowdays, so I don't know what you want le...
Even if you want to change your instructor, I would pay for you. Anything you want, I would give it my best to provide for you. I promise I will protect you always.
Just as Shinn promised Stella.
I will protect you.
i promise @
11:06 PM.
Thursday, October 27, 2005
[[Horoscopes for today]]
TaurusWhen you say you care, you mean it, and not just temporarily, either. Before you utter one syllable, however, you need to be absolutely sure those feelings are mutual. Well, go ahead. Say it, and don't worry about a thing.PiscesDon't you dare to ignore the phone, no matter how much you suddenly decide you're craving privacy. There's tomorrow for that. Someone you've missed is about to reach out, and you wouldn't want to miss it.
i promise @
11:55 AM.
[[Our Past]]
I don't believe that you can't remember anything.Do you still remember how you never fail to be there for me whenever I need you? Even if it is late when I call you and tell you that I feel sad, you would still stay up to keep me company till you really are just too tired. :)
Do you remember the times when you were sad, but you wouldn't call to tell me. Only when I call you and ask you then would you tell me that something is bothering you. After the call, you would always msg to tell me that you appreciate my concern.
You always seem so appreciative towards whatever I do. You always seem so happy when you see the gifts I have for you. It just brings me joy just to care for you. Even if you are still sad, the process, of caring for you, alone is something that I look forward to doing. It was never a chore to care for you. I did it willingly and whole-heartedly. On the contray, it is when I am unable to help you that I feel empty and useless.
Last time when I call you and tell you that I am lonely, and ask for your company, you would readily agree... Your reply would always be, "You asking me out ah?", in that cheerful and bubbly tone of yours.. It just brings a little smile to my face. When we meet, we always tease each other. Though sometimes, I would want you to treat me too :p ...Then sometimes you would 'bully' me and expect me to give in to you. It's fine by me. The look on your face as you celebrate your little vitory brightens my day.
Remember the stars I made for you that time? Out of the 88 stars, there's just this one special star that carries a little message from me. And once again, I am folding stars for you again. This time, all the stars convey my message. I mean every word of it. Would you believe me? These stars are for your driving test. As much as I would want you to fail, so that you can learn under my instructor, I still want you to succeed in what your heart desires. That is why I always want to make your wishes come true.. Just like a little Guardian Angel...
When you said you like dark chocolates, I bought them for you whenever i meet you. You said you wanted to try those arcade driving games, and I brought you to play the next time I met you. The day we arranged to meet to pass you the stars, I was on course in Jurong. That day, we had an assignment. I skipped lunch just to finish it so that I can meet you that day. I just can't wait to see you! I was looking forward to meeting you... I eagerly waited for our photo-taking that night... The photos are great. You look beautiful in them. I look at them every now and then. I kept thinking of you, so much so that I wrote your name on a piece of paper which was later discovered by my group mates.
When I was on course, you called me one night when you got your results. You cried before you msg and called me. He didn't care about you. You turned to me. I was very happy. I was happy that you would share your happenings with me.
When you called me back then to tell me you broke up, somehow I was elated. I felt as though I could take care of you fully now. You were crying so much. I rushed with the housework because I wanted to go to you. I want to be there for you, to embrace you. To let you know that I am always there for you. I know you need to be comforted. However, you told me not to come. You said you didn't want me to see you cry. Have you forgotten what you told me before? You told me that it is natural for humans to cry, monkeys don't, but I respected your decision, I didn't go. I regretted my decision. I should have been there.
After you broke up, I knew you were sad, I asked if you needed company. But, I wasn't free everyday. I was on NDP duty at Marina, still I managed to squeeze out one day for you. It was only a while, actually I wanted to meet you more than you needed me. That period, I would call you sometimes at night to check on you, to see if you are doing fine. I remember there was night, I was very tired, but I just wanted to hear your voice, so I called you. I asked how are you. You said you were fine. I told you not to worry because I would protect you de...Your reply seemed sweet, maybe somewhat touched and glad. There was a lttle sparkle in your voice. Little did I know, you had already patched up.
Do you remember the times when I msg you and say that I needed you. You would offer to talk to me, to keep me company.
I knew you are always there for me.
I did all these for you because I wanted you to be happy, because I feel that he wouldn't do it for you.
All these things. All of in the past. How could you have forgotten? Don't you feel anything at all?
i promise @
2:25 AM.
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
[[Stella]]
My other blog is about a year old already.
I started that blog to pen my anguish and sorrows.
It seems that I am doing the same now.
Why is it that the end of the year seems rotten for me always?
Last time, I bore the traits of Kira, now it's Shinn. The beginning of the sequel to Gundam SEED opened a new chapter in my life. In the past, I was a little boy like Kira. He didn't know anything after sadness. When tragedy befalled him, he sought to protect the ones he loved. He was locked in an never ending turmoil within himself. Trapped between Athrun and his Natural friends. He was dying for the answer. What was his purpose? Though, in the time to come, Kira did get his answer. It wasn't to fight, but rather to protect.
Shinn was different. He knew his destiny ever since the death of his family. He was clouded by anger, harath and vengence. In the past, he weak, he was helpless. That's why, as his skills improved, he realised he could accomplish what he could'nt before. He now possessed the power to protect. When fate brought him and Stella together, he swore to protect her, forever.
As I do now.
I dreamt of you last night. I think of you all the time. I pray for the day that we can finally be together.
I pray that you will remember. Remember our past. How we used to care for each other. How we were always there for each other. You even said you tell me everything, and that there are no secrets between us. The biggest secret that I have kept from you is that I have fallen for you.
Don't you know how I feel? Can't you see how much I care for you? Didn't you realise that I'm always there for you whenever possible? Last time, the feelings weren't really there, but now I know they are. I have been telling myself that I will protect you always.. Didn't I tell you that too? When you broke up, you confided in me. Whenever I have problems, I turn to you. Have you forgotten the times when our fathers used to hurt us? We found comfort in each other. We told each other everything. We cried to each other. Even though we didn't cry face to face, but even over the phone, I felt so close to you. We knew how each other felt, you knew the right questions to ask.
When I call to tell you that I'm sad, you would always ask how am I, and what was wrong... Even though my problems have not been solved, I feel comforted enough. Whenever I'm upset, I know that you are always there for me. I promised to always be there for you too didn't I? I told you that so many times, didn't I? How could you have forgotten? I love you so much. I don't care if if he has taken anything from you. I love you enough. I just want to protect you for the rest of my life! Do you know how much I love and care abt you? Whenever I know that there's something that you want, I would try my very best to give it to you. It would seem insignificant because, we don't talk that much nowdays, so I don't know what you want le...
Even if you want to change your instructor, I would pay for you. Anything you want, I would give it my best to provide for you. I promise I will protect you always.
Just as Shinn promised Stella.
I will protect you.
i promise @
11:06 PM.